self-feeding

Don't you hate it when somebody tries to meddle how you raise your kid? I do. As a mother, I know what my child wants or needs. I also know if something is good for him or not and if he is ready for something or not.
Not because somebody else kid is ready for something doesn't mean my son is too. I mean, kids develop differently, don't they? So whatever somebody says about my boy supposed to be ready for all kinds of adult food, I act like I didn't hear anything. I would have wanted to say something but I don't want to hurt somebody else feelings. Even if they don't care for mine.
The other day I gave my son french fries. Since he is not used to me handing him food all the time (I want him to get used to the idea that eating should only be done when he is in the dining table) I thought he will not accept it but he did. He ate the whole fry and when I gave him more he did the same. I am happy. He used to choke when I gave him food like that before. I guess he wasn't ready yet then. He still only has six teeth but he now knows how to use his gums even without the molars. So he now accepts food when I give him some and enjoys it too. It all depends on whether he likes the food though. Because if he doesn't then it ends on the floor which is just a waste.
He is still picky with food except for those he is used to eating. I have to introduce a certain food to him one at a time and only on small amounts just in case he doesn't like the taste. I am still afraid he is going to choke though so I always keep an eye on him when he is eating. I let him eat his food alone and wait until he is done. Saves me time cleaning after his mess too since when I am watching him he doesn't throw his food much.
Raising a kid is hard enough but meddling is making it worse. So for all you mothers out there, raise your kids the way you are comfortable with. It is your life, your kid. You alone knows what is best for him or her. Follow your instincts. That is what I am doing with my son what with me far from my own mother but I seem to think I am doing fine with the help of my husband.

four wheeler

I just wanted to post a pic of my son in here. Afterall this blog is supposed to be about him and his antics. Only mama has been busy about a lot of things lately that it was easier to just post whatever she thinks of posting at the moment. Bubby loves his four wheeler and gets on it most of the time either watching tv or just playing. He sometimes would flip it over to play with the wheels. It is now a common sight in the living room, his four wheeler. He still gets into things a lot but I am now getting used to it and he listens to no (sometimes) so things are pretty much fine concerning my boy. It's the older ones that are getting on my nerves. I guess I just need a vacation alone with bubby far away for a while before I crack. If I do it will be harder to repair. What a mess! Anyways, here is mama venting again.

a stroll on the beach

We just got home from the beach. It is sunny and warm today that hubby decided for us to go and walk. Of course that was after I went bicycling alone because I was bored. So we went to the beach and walk and had a good time. It was windy so I kept my jacket on but most people were wearing bikinis and shorts. Kids were playing too. I decided to strip bubby's jeans and let him walk and enjoy the sand. He was so happy running around. We had a little problem though because when he saw a toy identical to his plastic beach wagon he ran to it and picked up the toys that went with it and put them in the wagon. He probably was wondering why somebody else was playing with his toys. It was so funny but embarassing at the same time. Good thing the owner was an older kid so he just looked and smiled. If the boy was about bubby's age there probably would have been a huge problem. I was confident he will not mess with anybody so I just let him run. I was at fault there actually.
He saw a ball lying in the sand probably forgotten and he played with it but I told him it wasn't his so we better leave it alone. I promised him I will bring his ball and wagon the next time we go to the beach so he can play. He was pacified with that. Dada had to carry him on our way back to the car though because making him walk was like walking in circles. No direction at all. He ran wherever he fancied. Even walked near the sunbathers.
It was a pretty good walk on a pretty day. I was glad to be out of the house for a while. I am so tired right now that I just want to lay down and take a nap provided bubby will too. Maybe I will try that and see what happens.

fill me in

I AM… a tightwad. For real. lol

I WANT… bubby to stop being defiant. But then he is a kid afterall. Plus he got me as a mother who is the most defiant person in the whole wide world hubby claimed. Blame it on the genes huh?

I HAVE… a lot of blogs.

I WISH… I may, I wish I might.

I HATE… to see people begging for food and nobody giving them any.

I SEARCH… for answers. Wait a minute, what are the questions?

I WONDER… when we will go back to Leyte for a vacation.

I REGRET… not studying hard for the licensure exam consequently letting my parents down.

I LOVE… my boys. So much so that both are getting spoiled ;)

I ALWAYS… pray before I sleep at night.

I AM NOT… tall. waaaaaa!

I DANCE… like crazy when I get warmed up.

I SING… silly songs for bubby.

I CRY… whether I am sad, mad, sick, or happy. I know I am crazy.

I WRITE… whatever comes to my mind. Sometimes my writing is incoherent but who cares?

I WON… my boys' affection. Hands down.

I AM CONFUSED… why people are mean and greedy. But realized that I am too sometimes. Therefore I conclude that it is human nature, only some are to the max which isn't really good.

I NEED… to potty train bubby. Darn diapers are expensive.

I SHOULD… cook rice before I starve.

THE LAST THOUGHT YOU GO TO SLEEP WITH IS… it is nice to have somebody to keep me warm and safe.

my bubby's got wings!

this was taken when mami was 4 mos. pregnant

When I was pregnant I always craved for fried chicken. Chicken wings was always on the menu, aside from ramen noodles, sweet fruits, and eggs. The whole four months I consumed chicken wings that would have amounted for a whole year with a regular person. I didn't like it any other way than fried. Restaurant and store-bought were what I liked. I didn't like my own cooking.

I ate so much chicken that at night I had dreams that the baby inside me had wings. Chicken wings in fact, lol. I dreamed that I felt bubby's wings (instead of arms) when he moved inside my tummy. Hubby laughed at me then. I even dreamed that I gave birth to, what else, a chick. Now that was really funny. I guess most mothers worry about what their baby would look like when it's born that they think about crazy stuff. I must admit that was silly.

Gratefully bubby was born normal and healthy. I was so glad and proud. When I look at him now I remember the feeling of carrying him inside me and all the happiness and discomfort I felt at the time. He sure is all worth it.

When hubby now looks at bubby walk and fall he shakes his head and jokes that maybe bubby really had wings before he was born because he sure stumbles a lot.

colicky baby

Tha worse thing I ever experienced taking care of bubby is the colic. It was so bad. He would wake up screaming in the middle of the night because of it. Even if I burped him and wouldn't put him down for about 30 minutes it didn't work. Hubby had to buy an over the counter medicine for colic and that settled bubby down some. Even when we switched his formula it only worked a little. It was so tiring. I can tell by his screams that he was hurting but I can only do so little. I did everything that I read from the book to soothe a colicky baby and bubby would settle for a few minutes but he would start screaming again. When he stopped having it after a few months I felt relief, not only for him but for me as well. I didn't mind waking up at night for his formula as long as that was the only thing he needed. In fact I was more than happy to give it to him up until his 12th month when he gave it up altogether. Now he sleeps through the night with occasional screaming from teething but I don't mind at all since it only happen a few times in between. Most of the time he is a sound sleeper and like dada an early riser. He is actually a happy baby and an independent one at that.

intermission

I just wanted to update this blog. I spent hours facing the create page last night and came up with nothing. My mind is drained. I have a lot of stories to tell about my son but I don't know where to start especially since he was standing beside me. Most of the times after I gave birth were a blur to me. Hubby said it was because of all the medicine they gave me during labor. I felt bad that I don't remember clearly my sons first few months. It must have been the combination of the drugs, stress of being a first time mother without the family to help out from time to time and a combination of all things. I am glad we have pictures. I may not remember vividly what happened but at least when I look at the pictures I remember the feeling. I am sure most mothers agree with me on that last one. Adjustment after the baby was born took a little while which might be one of the reasons. I am just speculating here though.
Anyways, gotta go my son's been trying to get up on the bed so he can type too. Have to play with him to make him happy.

mama and dada

I have been writing a lot about bubby and my life here but I don't remember ever writing anything how hubby and I met. Do you know where? The internet of course. Two people who aren't very proficient with the computer and the internet met in the web. Ironic isn't it? Here's how it happened.
I went to Manila in 2002 to take the review classes and then the Licensure Examination for Chemical Engineers. Sadly, I didn't pass so I decided to stay and look for a job. I bought a lot of the Manila Bulletin every Sunday to look for job openings and as if it wasn't enough, I went to the internet cafe to look some more online and also to print my resume which was on a diskette that time. Since I only have a very limited knowledge about computers the only thing I can do is open my emails, use MSWord and chat. No I didn't met hubby on the chatroom. He doesn't know how remember? It was when I was searching for jobs online that a window always pops up. Everytime I close it it came right back. It was annoying! After it did that for several times I read it and then filled it up and submitted it. There, it stopped popping. And so I was able to finish my search and logged out.
A few days later I received an email from, what do you know, a dating website. Lol. I read and I remember I signed up for it. I just left it at that. Looking for a job was more important to me and there was pressure on every corner so I didn't really have much choice. I would, from time to time, check my membership though. I even put a 1x1 pic in there after a few months of receiving emails from them because nobody ever sent me anything, no emails, nothing. I felt like I wasn't desirable enough. Maybe because of the header I put in there which was looking for a penpal :) Who would want a penpal on the internet? Apparently, hubby did. We were just two misfits on that website and we met and we clicked. He sent me an email with his yahoo addy and that's when it all started. We sent emails once maybe twice a month for eight months before he started calling. There was no talk of relationships or anything. We were just friends. He claimed that my emails always brightened his days and that he looked forward to it. We were both busy with work. I finally got accepted to work in Laguna and he was working fulltime and part-time. Plus there were some unresolved problems with the ex.
He called me after eight months and it lasted for an hour. We were both excited. Lol. It was fun talking to him even if it was just him talking most of the time. By then my job contract in Laguna was about to expire. I told him that I was thinking of staying and looking for a permanent job. He said it was okay. But something happened along the way that I decided to go back to Manila and continue communicating with him. By then he started saying he loves me on the phone. Even in the emails he sent. I on the other hand couldn't say the word. I don't know why. I just couldn't. I guess because I am not used to verbal ways of expressing my emotions. It took me a long time to say it to him and I did when he least expect it. I didn't even thought of it, it just came off my mouth. Right after that we started taking about the future, me and him and a possible family. And the rest as the say is history. Sure it took us long to realize that we have something beautiful going. It was after over a year of communicating online and thru phone that he went to Manila and we met in person. It was a wonderful week together. My parents went to the city to met him and his son. It was fun and romantic. We actually agreed that we will meet but if ever we realize we don't like each other in person then we have to tell each other that. We can't be having a relationship if we dislike each other on sight. Turned out there was no problem on that aspect. We hit it off right away and on his second day in the Philippines, he proposed and I accepted.
Vacation was over, he went back and we filed the necessary papers. There were bumps along the way but things worked out and here I am now, married to the only guy I promised to love forever. When we look back, we agree that it was one h*ll of a ride, lol. Ups and downs and in betweens but gratefully we're settled and we're doing great. And we are blessed with a wonderful son. Now looking forward for more happy and blessed years together.